Even If You Are Not in Life, Stay in Imagination

Even though I thought that I would not go home that Eid, I decided to go. At least by thinking about that family and their happiness which just exists by its name. So I left for home. It was a lot of trouble to get things done in a hurry like this. But as usual roommate Ritu helped a lot in packing the bags. Returning home from the office, I see that everything has been arranged by her. The ticket was managed by Shafiq at the last minute. The boy is always very active as a friend. Even after running, I found that there were still 40 minutes left for the bus to leave. In fact, it never occurred to me that the streets of Dhaka would be so empty a day before Eid. What else to do? I was sitting at the counter with Kumar Shanu in my earphones and Samaresh Majumdar in my hand and also worrying if I had left anything. At that time, I saw the man sitting in the front seat wearing a green shirt and light blue jeans with frameless glasses looking at me again and again. I didn't realize how long it had been going on. So I started talking to avoid uncomfortable situations.

Do you wanna say something??
Aren’t you Nishii?? I'm I right??
Yes,I am. And you??

Me!! I know this is normal. I would be surprised if you remember me. I am Sayon, Sayon Ahmed. Department of Bana.University 25th Batch.
University life has passed 6 years. I was under unbearable stress for four years of my University life. And when the pressure left, I spent a year as the best time of my life, but all my previous acquaintances and memories have been buried in that time of my life. So it was a little difficult to remember. Sayon Ahmed of Bengal Division. Even though it may still be on the block list on my phone. That's mean It even exists in some parts of my life today.
My usual habit, I don't keep someone on a block list. But once I keep someone, I keep them forever. Very few people can get off the blocklist.
But that doesn't mean he committed any serious crime that would have resulted in him being blacklisted. Sometimes you have to decide to walk away from the person in front of you. It is a cruel law of nature. The fact of Sayon was not different. If I agreed to his madness, the two of us might have been in a different place today. My thoughts were interrupted again by Sayon's talk,

*    What happened? Still unable to remember? I must have been such a forgettable nobody. Don't put pressure on your memory.
*    Hey, no, why can't I remember? You were never forgettable.
*    Is it true! Okay. what are you doing these days? And how are you?
*    Going through life and being as I was meant to be.
*    Your habit of twisting and turning topic has not changed yet.
*    Oh really! Tell me how you are! How is your family life going on?
*    am fine. Me with my mother, the family of two is as it should be.
*    When will you bring the rest of the family? Your age is not less!
*    Ha ha ha, Maybe I am waiting for someone, but age will not wait anymore. right?
*    The wait is also too aged, release that now.

Apart from this waiting, I have no other treasure of love. Now I know how I fell in love with this waiting. leave me with it. Say about you. What are you doing? Still don't think of anything other than lying face down in the books?
Although the question is very strange and reasonable, only I and my fate know. Our thinking can't give that thing by luck. In the midst of thinking, I came back to reality with the call of Sion,

*    What are you thinking? Where are you going?
*    Going there, where I have to go even if I don't want to.
*    Mean?
*    Leave it. You say, where are you going? This bus goes opposite to your home. Has The destination changed?
*    Ha ha ha No, it hasn't. I just came to see if there is an opportunity to change the destination.
*    mean?
*    Nothing, I came forward to be sure if it is you.
*    Oh, Thanks for coming. But it's time for me to go. I mean, the time of the bus.
*    Oh ,Well. stay then. Let me leave.

Even if you want to stay for a long time, but you can't? Just like before, not everything is available. Thinking this, Sayon didn't wait for me to say ‘bye’ and continued to move outside the counter.

*     where are you going
*     Ahead.
*     How much?
*     Just as far as I can touch your heart?
*    What's in it? You Can't hold it forever! Rather hold my hand! You will be able to hold for life.
*     No!
*     Why?
*     Hand is Removable. If you remove your heart, you will be destitute.
*     Do you want me to be lonely?
*     Absolutely not.
*     Then?
*     That's why I wanted to touch your heart. I will come back after touching your heart. Come along if you feel the touch.
*     If not?
*    Then I will understand, there is still a long way to go.
*     Hmm, there is really a long way to go.
 A long way to go...

The conversation remained only in my mind. The departure of Sayon remained in my eyes. What strange rules have been created in life! Those who want but don't get it in their whole life. And those who don't want but get it, they think that thing is worthless. Even if you want someone or something, sometimes those can't be yours in reality in life, so maybe that's why the Creator has created something great called imagination. Even if you are not in life, stay in imagination.

 
Smita Jannat is an author, translator and a student of Jagannath University, Dhaka.